2003-05-31 
 

silent star wars

I just found something very interesting. Some of the quotes are a bit off, but this is a pretty intense site for any Star Wars fan. ASCII WARS! (and yes, I sat mesmerized for over half an hour watching it)

* posted by me at 3:09 AM

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2003-05-30 
 

racing for equality

Sitting at my desk and I can barely keep my eyes open, extra large coffee did nothing for me this morning.

Amazing Race was on last night. Go Reichen and Chip! (Gotta root for the gay married couple of course.) Marriage may be an old hetero tradition that gay folks should be above and beyond, but until they take the legal rights away from the straights and develop a truly equitable, non-religious based system of couple recognition, I'm standing up for gay marriage. G and I are more committed to each other than some of the hetero married couples we know, yet should one of us get sick (or worse) we have no rights that allow us to make decisions for each other without going through complicated legalwork. (And that's just one of the most obvious discrepencies.) I'm not saying I want to stand up in anyone's church and thumb my nose at their personal beliefs as I declare my love for him. We don't need a fancy building and an elebortate ceremony to know we've decided to be together. I just want the government - which has supposedly seperated church and state - to recognize our couplehood as deserving of the same respect and legal recognition as a union between our straight counterparts.

Wow, that got me all riled up and now I'm AWAKE!

Edited: The fact that Chip and Reichen are no more doesn't stand in the way of the fact that G and I still are and still are lacking the rights to the same simple privledges hets enjoy in 49 states.

Labels: dose of mikey, linkage, random review, rant

* posted by me at 2:55 PM

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2003-05-28 
 

true love

One of the best things about being in a relationship is that when your mouth is full of anesthetic from the dentist doing a deep cleaning, and you can't feel the left half of your face, there's someone waiting at home to take care of you with soup and beer. (because you can't chew anything for the next three to four hours.) And most importantly, they put up with your whiney ass self.

I love you honey! Everyone send hugs to G for putting up with me, otherwise I'd be calling YOU!

Labels: dose of mikey, g

* posted by me at 10:32 PM

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hawaiian dreamin

I think I need a vacation. Today was my first official day in the new position and while I'm excited about it all, my energy level was low and I found myself thinking about how far away the next long weekend is. I've been wanting to do something with G that isn't just a trip back home to MA. Not that I don't want to see everyone, but we haven't actually taken a true week-long vacation on our own in the whole time we've been together.

My trip to Hawaii a few years back with Bunny Girl was one of the best vacations I ever took. Beautiful island and beautiful company. B and I were so in sync with each other back then, that we could easily give each other space when it was asked for and felt free to ask for it when needed. We'd also worked out a decision making process that truly took each other's desires into consideration and ended up leaving both of us happy. (It helps that we'd recently been practicing choice as a method of being happy. So simple, yet such a hard concept for many to grasp.) Even when there was friction, as in the lava talk, we'd learned to get it out in the open and then let go. A bit like a well married couple, minus the sex. (Though we gave each other space for that too now that I think of it.)

After almost three years together, G and I are getting close to a similar space. Still a ways to go, and the processes are a bit different, but it's there and I long to spend time away from it all with him and just him. Maybe again to the Big Island since it was truly one of the most beautiful spaces I've ever been to, but maybe someplace new to both of us. Iceland comes to mind for some reason. We both have a strange fascination with the green island nation up north, and it would be fun to share discovering it with him.

Random thought: I always feel great on islands and peninsulas and they tend to dominate my dreams. Cape Cod, San Francisco, Hawaii, St. Barts...even Manhattan and Boston in a strange way. Once an island and a peninsula respectively that have taken on a whole new identity as the years went on.

Labels: g, memory lane, sharketing, spirit

* posted by me at 2:23 AM

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2003-05-25 
 

cupcakes

G's made a whole bunch of cupcakes and we get to frost them now for the Memorial Day gathering at Hug's place tomorrow. Just what I need late at night...a sugar rush. (not that I'm complaining mind you)

In geekier news: Yes, I must still be a Trekkie because this list cracked me up.

Labels: dose of mikey, g, linkage

* posted by me at 2:01 PM

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2003-05-23 
 

prediction

I see the signs. (and I found the website) I shall be spending future Thursday evenings being a pop culture junky and watching The Amazing Race 4.

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* posted by me at 3:37 PM

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2003-05-22 
 

dancing

This morning on the way to work, I heard Lee Ann Womack's I Hope You Dance. I'm not a big fan of country music, but this song always gets me. (Yes, I own it, I'm a sentimental geek...and quite happy about it.)

The refrain in particular sticks with me. I think of my Mom and Dad, who sent me out into the world with similar sentiments. Never telling me what to do, just what they wished for me.

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
Dance....I hope you dance.
...
Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone?

I got in the car this evening to go home and turned it on to hear the song playing again. I can be dense sometimes, but when the universe shouts I pay attention. Gave a call home and had a great conversation with Dad. I try and call about once a week, but life and the moment we're in often gets in the way of the to of us doing more than exchanging news and passing along love. Mom and I have always have an easier time of getting deep into it when we talk. I think there's enough of her mother in both of us to want to explore our deepest thoughts and share them. Tonight, Dad and I talked about everything and nothing and had one of those deeper conversations. We both laughed a lot and yes, when I told him about the song, it choked me up. (told you I was sentimental)

If I haven't said it before in this space, I love you both very much. I thank you for always being honest with me and accepting of my own honesty. I thank you for letting me fall down now and again, as much as it must've hurt to not snatch me back from learning things in my own way. I thank you for congratulating me in the times when that fall turned into a "triumphant dismount", and I thank you for helping me get up in the times when I landed flat on my back without ever saying "I told you so." Now that I'm an adult, I thank you for letting me pick you up now and again when you need it, without ever expecting me to. I thank you for becoming more than parents to me as I've gotten older, without ever stopping caring about me as only parents can. Most of all, I thank you for always encouraging me to dance.

Labels: dose of mikey, shout out

* posted by me at 12:42 AM

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2003-05-21 
 

mini-prayer

I want!
I want!
I want!
but i don't really need....

i have love, food, shelter,
steady income, support from friends,
so many options of what to do with my spare time...
i have spare time
i have good books to read
i have someone to snuggle up with on a quiet evening
i have quiet evenings...

Yet sometimes I still make it seem so rough,
so don't test me like Job.
I'll fall flat on my face.

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* posted by me at 1:27 AM

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2003-05-17 
 

matrix redux

Just got back from a screening of The Matrix Reloaded. If you liked the first one, this is a must see, just don't expect too much. The effects are all there, bigger and better, but nothing that tops the initial amazement of the first movie when you'd never seen anything quite like that before. I did leave the theater today much the same way I had after my first viewing of The Matrix four years ago; with the feeling that I too could jump buildings if I only knew the secret code. G and I had a fun ride home pretending that we did.

Of course, for those of you who aren't aware of it, I do believe we possess the secret code on level much deeper than Hollywood's latest blockbuster. It's just a matter of allowing ourselves to remember it and not fearing the responsibilities that come along with knowing.

Labels: linkage, random review, spirit

* posted by me at 7:21 PM

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2003-05-16 
 

at long last

Well, now it's even more official. The job was offered by my new manager and I accepted. Exact start time is somewhere between next week and the week following depending on some arcane HR ritual. (I believe that they gather around a pile of employee guideline binders and dance a jig widdershins while setting it all on fire. Afterwards, the exact start date can be deciphered from the ashes. Never fear, it's always within two weeks of official offer.)

No matter, a huge weight has been lifted...and some people have it much worse.

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* posted by me at 6:43 PM

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2003-05-14 
 

silver lining

Well it's just about official. I've accepted the price and should be offered the job tomorrow. Rather nasty experience in many ways, but a good learning.

In similar news, I will continue to believe that it is a basic human trait to find something redeemable (and often cute) in every situation.

Labels: linkage, sharketing, spirit

* posted by me at 11:46 PM

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waiting game

We're talking salary now, one word. YUCK! Hate doing this. Must look at it as a challenge to get better in the future, because today I SUCKED royally at it. Hopefully better news tomorrow, but I've got all these issues about money and getting screwed at work that decided to surface right in the middle of negotiations. First time in a long time that I've felt dissapointed with myself. Which is why I'm going to look on it as a learning experience and be better prepared next time. A little hard to do that now, but time heals all wounds. (and wounds all heels for that matter) Gotta keep believing that.

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* posted by me at 12:14 AM

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2003-05-11 
 

homo alone

G and I watched Homo Heights last night...very odd. Can't decide whether it's a two or a four star movie. The sound quality was pretty bad, some of the dialouge was stilted, and the plot...well it sort of staggered a bit and then took a giant leap at the end. On the other hand, it had Lea DeLaria in it and I have a huge soft spot for her. Also, Quentin Crisp, who played the character trapped by the Drag Queen Don of the gay mafia, does manage to speak exactly as I'd imagine Oscar Wilde would have done. There were some great throw away lines in it too. Great concept, not so great execution I guess.

In other news, I STILL KNOW NOTHING about the job. G and I spent Friday night entertaining Vyvianka who's about to do a summer internship in Thailand and her beau. It's always fun having them over for dinner. They like food. We like food. It's a good thing.

Insipid entry, sorry. OR maybe I'm not. This is my journal after all. Phhhbtt.

Labels: blogging, dose of mikey, g, linkage, random review

* posted by me at 6:49 PM

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2003-05-07 
 

all quiet on the working front

Still no word....just lots of little meetings between the director and someone from HR. I had a plan to pounce on him tonight for more info, but he snuck past my radar and I remain uniformed. I have one word for y'all. ARRRRGH!

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* posted by me at 10:26 PM

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2003-05-06 
 

bubbles

Still no word from the powers that be on the workfront. Strange interview today. It went will but the whole situation is just a bit odd. Can't say more than that really, but I can say that I'm stressing a bit about it all and wish that they'd make up their minds. Synchronicity has us catsitting for Hugs for the past few days which means we can make use of his jacuszzi. Nothing like a nice soak in happy bubbles to calm one down. Still, they better make up their minds soon or they're likely to see that it's not just 'He's a cleverish man. Call!', but also 'An evil, charmless leach'.

Special thanks to the folks at Anagram Genius for giving me those and hundreds of other anagrams of my name!

Labels: dose of mikey, linkage, sharketing

* posted by me at 1:36 AM

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2003-05-02 
 

early

Having trouble sleeping these days. Unless I knock myself out with a bit too much wine or a little blue pill, I tend to wake up several times a night and have trouble falling back asleep. Last night G fell asleep in front of the TV, so when I woke up this morning around 5 I didn't have the excuse of cuddling up against him and slowly drifting off again, so I did something radical: I got up early! So it's 6:30 and for once I'll end up at work before everyone else instead of after. I know that I'm really tired inside, but the thought of the weekend and a nice relaxing jacuzzi tonight will get me through the bit o' work I need to do today. (Coffee is also my close friend this morning.)

I have to admit that there is something quite nice about being the only one awake and enjoying the crisp silence of morning. (Oops, just knocked my banana bread plate reaching for the mouse and woke up G. Sorry hon!) That's the only problem with having a "Study Hall" instead of an actual computer room...too echoey.

Labels: dose of mikey, g, linkage

* posted by me at 9:38 AM

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2003-05-01 
 

quick

Had a nice time over at PG&Es last night. Delicious chicken picata dinner with the most incredible blue cheese mashed potatoes. Yum. Also nice to sit around with the other guest and chat about life, the universe and everything. Of course this means that we had to tape the last two episodes of Manor House. Very excited to pop the tape in and see how it all turns out. (keeping fingers crossed that it all ended up taped ok)

On that note: Any opinions out there about Tivo? I'm hearing rave reviews from several coworkers and wondering if it might not be an option for us...

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* posted by me at 10:59 PM

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