2005-02-21 
 

waking up

Yesterday B came over and hung out with us for the afternoon and into the evening. I realized that we haven't just hung out for almost four years now. We spent an afternoon together about two years ago, but I was overly concerned with her psychological welfare at that particular point in time. We didn't speak very often on the phone, and I had allowed the different social situation she chose to live in become suspect in my mind. In retrospect, I believe jealousy and self centeredness got the best of me. (Annoying how clear hindsight can be.)

I even managed to imagine a slight conspiracy against myself by other members of her family. Were they listnening in to our conversations? Was she getting my messages?

Sorry Bun, I've been a dork.

I also realize that the not-so-nice first meeting she and G had four years ago was something I'd been fretting about. It hurt me that my future husband and best friend might never get along, but instead of confronting that emotion and arranging a followup meeting, I just buried it deep down inside and allowed the physical distance between B and myself to be a good excuse for ignoring that particular elephant in the living room.

You heard it hear first folks, sometimes I can be a big idiot. We all had a great time this weekend and look forward to seeing her a few more times while she's in town.

thanks to D for snapping some candids...especially this one

Labels: 1000 words, dose of mikey, g

* posted by me at 7:30 PM

Comments:

Many things have changed (I have learned more refined social skills and I am not so readily inclined to offend someone who takes such good care of you) but some things remain the same (we understand each other).

What got me most was when you told me that even if we never see each other again, I will still be your best friend.

# posted by  Becca aka bun : 7:45 PM, February 23, 2005

 

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